Goodbye's Make Me Sad

****So I am obviously awful at blogging. Mostly because something I have always lacked is consistency. Even though I think about blogging often I never actually do it. And once I've gone long enough without doing it feels daunting to try and start again because I feel like I have to cover everything I didn't blog about since the last time. Anyways, I wrote a post awhile ago and then never published it but I really want to. It's going to say things like today and wherever you read today you should insert a month ago. Now for the actual blog post****

Today was a fairly tearful day.

This last year I have spent an AMAZING time attending Brigham Young University. It has literally been the greatest time of my life. And probably the main reason it was been so wonderful is because of my student ward. Provo YSA 110 Ward has been a home to me this year. I look back and realize it is where I made the majority of my friends and that I have grown to love the people in it so much. Coming into it in August I wasn’t expecting to open my heart to these people so much. Especially when I found out that there was 120 girls and only 30 guys in the ward, I was planning on not enjoying myself at all. Now I wouldn’t let them change a thing about this ward because it is some kind of perfect. I have meet some of the kindest, most loving, genuine, spiritual, best people that I have ever meet in my life. I don’t think I could have made it through this year if I hadn’t had the support system that my ward family gave me. I knew that we all had something special and that I was going to make friendships that would last forever from that first time that we played signs and stayed up the entire night. And even though things have changed since then there is still a dear and precious place in my heart for everyone who has been a part of this experience.
Today was the last Sunday that Provo YSA 110 Ward had together. Sitting in church I felt such a strong appreciation for everyone who was in that room with me. They have all been such amazing examples and have made me view my life in a very different way. I am SO PROUD of all the boys in the ward who are going on missions next year. When they all came up and told where they were serving I teared up a little and when we sang Called to Serve there may have been waterworks. These are some of the greatest guys I have ever meet and I know they are going to be some of the best missionaries ever. They are sacrificing to much to do the Lord’s work and I will miss them so much when they are gone. I have made such close friends with some of these guys, it’s going to be ridiculously hard to say goodbye to them for the last time and have to wait two years to see them again, but it is also totally worth it! Because even though I am sad to see them go I am even more excited for them!

Then there was the ward slide show. Sarah did an amazing job on it and instead of feeling sad it made me happy because it reminded me how much fun everything has been. It showed how supportive everyone in the ward is of each other and how much we love each other.
I have to admit my heart aches a little right now because I don’t think that I will ever be in a ward that is as amazing as this one and because I am going to miss everyone so much. I don’t know how we all became so close to each other but I know that I am so grateful that we did. I am so thankful to the Lord for giving me this family this year because I needed them and I hope they needed me too.
To all the boys in their bromances, Jacob who was our papa bear, Sean for inventing Wabu Sabe, Emmi for being a great roommate, Blair for always being bubbly, Elise Marchant for being perfect, Ginger for being incredibly talented and spiritual, Easton for adding the perfect touch of inappropriateness, Tyler for all the facebook status updates, Carly for teaching the ward what a true hipster is, Madison for making everyone want all her clothes, Alyssa for being one of the sweetest people, Cassie for bringing us the joy of Carson, Carson for checking in at the Cannon Center, David to have someone to talk about boys fashion with, Joe for giving us someone to obsess over, Elise Moulton for also appreciating tumblr, Elise Hill for showing us how to have no fear, Shayli for stalking couples with and Taylor S for giving us someone to stalk, Easton Jacob G Jacob B Duncan Ben Daniel Thaddeus and Tyler for not getting mad when we pranked you, Taylor for being the sexy sax man, Heidi Jessica Kate and Kira for teaching us awesome dance moves, Paige for teaching us that things can be hot messes, Julianna for giving us someone in the ward with an accent, Mike D for getting respect, Josh for always letting us use his grandparents to watch movies, Eden for teaching us that we should all love Divine Comedy, Dalton for being sexy and having a smolder, Shaundi for always wanting to include everyone, Emily H Breanna Mackayla and Brendon for being the best RAs, Derek for having the best laugh and voice, Lindsey Kaytee Megan P and Brendon for being our common gingers, Angela and Nicki for leading every ward wrap-up perfectly, McLane for her sarcasm, Sarah for all the pictures, McKay for teaching us to eat Cinnamon Toast Crunch with chocolate milk, Duncan for being a best friend, and Amy for being a partner in crime. All of you are what made this ward so special and I will miss you so much.

I hate goodbyes and this one is definitely hard. But to all of, whether we see each other again in this life or the next,

God be with you till we meet again.

Counting the Days

There is only 30 days left of my freshman year! There is literally a wave of emotion that comes over me when I think about it. This year has truly been spectacular. The last couple of months of been kinda hard, but they don't overwhelm the perfect first semester I had! The friends I have made here are incredible and I am beginning to realize how much I am going to miss them over the summer. I really wish I had actually been blogging during the last couple of months because we've done some pretty cool things! From trying to build igloo's, to sneaking on to people's lawns to take pictures with their christmas lights, to making paper flowers, to going to rock canyon to watch a meteor shower and Anastasia I have had so much fun throughout all of it. The problem is I have this stereotypish thing in my head that I have to try to do everything fun my freshmen year, so I'm a little bit nervous for it to end. I know that this is ridiculous and that you can still have fun the rest of college. But I feel like I'm gonna have to be more serious after this year and I'm not quite ready for that yet. So I guess I'm just gonna have to make the very best out of the next 30 days!