Goodbye's Make Me Sad

****So I am obviously awful at blogging. Mostly because something I have always lacked is consistency. Even though I think about blogging often I never actually do it. And once I've gone long enough without doing it feels daunting to try and start again because I feel like I have to cover everything I didn't blog about since the last time. Anyways, I wrote a post awhile ago and then never published it but I really want to. It's going to say things like today and wherever you read today you should insert a month ago. Now for the actual blog post****

Today was a fairly tearful day.

This last year I have spent an AMAZING time attending Brigham Young University. It has literally been the greatest time of my life. And probably the main reason it was been so wonderful is because of my student ward. Provo YSA 110 Ward has been a home to me this year. I look back and realize it is where I made the majority of my friends and that I have grown to love the people in it so much. Coming into it in August I wasn’t expecting to open my heart to these people so much. Especially when I found out that there was 120 girls and only 30 guys in the ward, I was planning on not enjoying myself at all. Now I wouldn’t let them change a thing about this ward because it is some kind of perfect. I have meet some of the kindest, most loving, genuine, spiritual, best people that I have ever meet in my life. I don’t think I could have made it through this year if I hadn’t had the support system that my ward family gave me. I knew that we all had something special and that I was going to make friendships that would last forever from that first time that we played signs and stayed up the entire night. And even though things have changed since then there is still a dear and precious place in my heart for everyone who has been a part of this experience.
Today was the last Sunday that Provo YSA 110 Ward had together. Sitting in church I felt such a strong appreciation for everyone who was in that room with me. They have all been such amazing examples and have made me view my life in a very different way. I am SO PROUD of all the boys in the ward who are going on missions next year. When they all came up and told where they were serving I teared up a little and when we sang Called to Serve there may have been waterworks. These are some of the greatest guys I have ever meet and I know they are going to be some of the best missionaries ever. They are sacrificing to much to do the Lord’s work and I will miss them so much when they are gone. I have made such close friends with some of these guys, it’s going to be ridiculously hard to say goodbye to them for the last time and have to wait two years to see them again, but it is also totally worth it! Because even though I am sad to see them go I am even more excited for them!

Then there was the ward slide show. Sarah did an amazing job on it and instead of feeling sad it made me happy because it reminded me how much fun everything has been. It showed how supportive everyone in the ward is of each other and how much we love each other.
I have to admit my heart aches a little right now because I don’t think that I will ever be in a ward that is as amazing as this one and because I am going to miss everyone so much. I don’t know how we all became so close to each other but I know that I am so grateful that we did. I am so thankful to the Lord for giving me this family this year because I needed them and I hope they needed me too.
To all the boys in their bromances, Jacob who was our papa bear, Sean for inventing Wabu Sabe, Emmi for being a great roommate, Blair for always being bubbly, Elise Marchant for being perfect, Ginger for being incredibly talented and spiritual, Easton for adding the perfect touch of inappropriateness, Tyler for all the facebook status updates, Carly for teaching the ward what a true hipster is, Madison for making everyone want all her clothes, Alyssa for being one of the sweetest people, Cassie for bringing us the joy of Carson, Carson for checking in at the Cannon Center, David to have someone to talk about boys fashion with, Joe for giving us someone to obsess over, Elise Moulton for also appreciating tumblr, Elise Hill for showing us how to have no fear, Shayli for stalking couples with and Taylor S for giving us someone to stalk, Easton Jacob G Jacob B Duncan Ben Daniel Thaddeus and Tyler for not getting mad when we pranked you, Taylor for being the sexy sax man, Heidi Jessica Kate and Kira for teaching us awesome dance moves, Paige for teaching us that things can be hot messes, Julianna for giving us someone in the ward with an accent, Mike D for getting respect, Josh for always letting us use his grandparents to watch movies, Eden for teaching us that we should all love Divine Comedy, Dalton for being sexy and having a smolder, Shaundi for always wanting to include everyone, Emily H Breanna Mackayla and Brendon for being the best RAs, Derek for having the best laugh and voice, Lindsey Kaytee Megan P and Brendon for being our common gingers, Angela and Nicki for leading every ward wrap-up perfectly, McLane for her sarcasm, Sarah for all the pictures, McKay for teaching us to eat Cinnamon Toast Crunch with chocolate milk, Duncan for being a best friend, and Amy for being a partner in crime. All of you are what made this ward so special and I will miss you so much.

I hate goodbyes and this one is definitely hard. But to all of, whether we see each other again in this life or the next,

God be with you till we meet again.

Counting the Days

There is only 30 days left of my freshman year! There is literally a wave of emotion that comes over me when I think about it. This year has truly been spectacular. The last couple of months of been kinda hard, but they don't overwhelm the perfect first semester I had! The friends I have made here are incredible and I am beginning to realize how much I am going to miss them over the summer. I really wish I had actually been blogging during the last couple of months because we've done some pretty cool things! From trying to build igloo's, to sneaking on to people's lawns to take pictures with their christmas lights, to making paper flowers, to going to rock canyon to watch a meteor shower and Anastasia I have had so much fun throughout all of it. The problem is I have this stereotypish thing in my head that I have to try to do everything fun my freshmen year, so I'm a little bit nervous for it to end. I know that this is ridiculous and that you can still have fun the rest of college. But I feel like I'm gonna have to be more serious after this year and I'm not quite ready for that yet. So I guess I'm just gonna have to make the very best out of the next 30 days!

This Week

This week I taught my friends how to play a game called Bang!



To say that they liked it would be an understatement! We actually played the game four days in a row. Not that I can complain cause it's my favorite game :) But it just made me realize how much I like simple things. One simple card game could fill us with enough entertainment to last FOUR days! Who knew sitting in a park with Bang would end up being so fulfilling and that we could just relax and not have to find some complicated, expansive way to have fun. It was nice!

College and Stuff

I think that today was the first day that it really sank in that I'm leaving. With the start of August came this huge shock that I am leaving this month! In three weeks! The summer has magically seemed to vanish and I feel like I almost have no time left. All of the plans I made at the beginning of the summer still haven't happened and it feels a little overwhelming.

I went shopping for college stuff today, which was also weird. I bought my bedding and bath stuff for my dorm. It was weird thinking about how I'll need my own stuff cause I'll be living on my own. Like I need my own towels and toothpaste and shampoo, cause I'm so used to sharing that stuff. The whole experience was really strange, but also really exciting. I just hope that I can handle living on my own and that I'll have better luck convincing myself to do laundry in college.

Lonely

I am not crazy about the fact that my two best friends aren't here. One has left me for college and is having a great time. The other is in Japan and I assume she is having a great time because I have no way to contact her. I on the other hand am here... on my computer at home. With nothing better to do than this....

And this.

And definitely this.

My life is great.

1 Year Later

So in my last post (a year ago) I lied. You may have noticed that I said I would be addicted and post often...I haven't. I've kinda taken the same approach to blogging as I do to journal writing. AKA I don't do it. So here's my second attempt to blog. Because in reality I have no free time but I love to give myself to many things to do so here is just one more.

So as I'm writing this I'm also watching "Say Yes To The Dress" home alone at my house. I'm home alone because I've been sick for the last week and am not allowed to go to my brother birthday party. Luckily, I love this show. In every episode there's the dictator mom who won't let their daughter choose their own dress and the daughters end up crying so the mom tries to take over the whole store AND there's always the girl who comes in and tries on a dress loves it but says she'll try on other ones. So they try on like fifty dresses and in the end decide to get the first dress anyway. And it's just hilarious I love watching brides, mothers and sales-assistants all cry over A DRESS! Plus one of my most favorite gay guys ever is Randi who just makes the whole show better.

So thats how I'm spending my evening, isn't it great. And thats why I hate being sick. Because I'm spending my friday night alone while watching woman cry. I know you're all secretly jealous you're not me right now. I mean, don't you wanna have a headache for a solid week, a stuffy nose, not able to smell and your whole body ache? Of course!

The Little Light Bulb

This is my first post for anyone reading. This is also my first blog. My dad's been bugging me to start one for about a week, ever since I got home from girls camp. My summer has been extremely busy so far and I haven't really had any free time. Since being home I've found I have a lot of free time that I've been wasting away on solitaire and virtual websites. Thus, making my dad have me sit down and write out ideas for a blog... I didn't have very many. I couldn't even think of a name, so I've been putting it off for about a week.

One interesting happenstance that has occurred last week, however, is Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along-Blog was discovered by my family. It's available on iTunes. There's three episodes and it's very funny. I recommend it to everybody. The point of all of this, though, is that since watching said show my family(mainly my sister, mom, and me) are constantly quoting it. Today my sister, Katie, and I have been incredibly bored. This has led to the demolition of various teen posters we own. While doing so Katie and I also let loose on our vast vocabulary of Dr. Horribleness, until at one point Katie exclaimed "What a crazy random happenstance!". This is when the little light bulb in my head went off and I proceeded inside to share my discovery with my daddy. This was my first idea that he has actually liked. So I sat down on my mom's computer and my blog was born.

I am quite excited to spend hours of my time on this blog and I hope to bring my friends into the time consuming addiction (I knows it's an addiction because both my parents can't stop and are obsessed.)(MOM- http://barnaclebutt.wordpress.com)(DAD- http://jiggyintel.blogspot.com/). Thus ending my first post.